Soar and S'more.

When I first sent in the application... I stood 0.01% chance... And then I got into the second round interview... I stood 30% chance... And I thought I failed... my interview session did not go well... And now it's 100% guaranteed that I'm flying to the USA... Dream is coming true. It's so beautiful that I can hardly believe it. I'm such a blessed soul. Thank you so much.

I know I did not love myself enough. I let myself cried over the same thing again and again. My heart chose to stay in the past because the present is stressing it out. I wish to turn back time, back to the days where I was complete with no scars nor wounds. I can't forgive myself for the mistakes I've made in the past. I always overthink and it gives me hard time to fall asleep. I do not tidy up my room. I just let it be and ignore it, even though I feel uncomfortable living in such messy room. But do not worry, I'm sure I will clean the mess up after SPM, where I can shift all the reference books out from the shelves. I always message the others, asking the others if they're okay. I know they need hug / somebody to rant on. So I'll try my best to be there for them. However, I never care about how broken I am. I just hide all the feelings into a huge giant big box and carry it with my heart. I guess it now weighs 25kg. I hope it drops until -47kg. I don...

Hello guys! I should be studying right now as I'm having my SPM but I'm really happy that I think I need to write a blog post to... share the joy with all of you. First of all, I PASSED MY DRIVING TEST AND I GOT MY LICENSE LIKE FINALLYYYYYY!!! Honestly, I hate driving manual car (very much). I'm so happy that I can finally get rid of it. Just drove my mum's car for the first time and I feel like writing an appreciation letter to the great person who invented automatic transmission.( I just googled it, it was invented by a Canadian named Alfred Horner Munro. Thank you so much Mr. Munro!) And secondly, I almost get through the first week of SPM. 7 more subjects to go! I can't wait to graduate and say bye to all those reference books stuffed in my bedroom. If you want some comment about the papers:- BM - the questions were really unexpected. Don't you ever believe that 'prosa ni dah keluar tahun lepas, tak kan keluar lagi tahun ni.' And don't ...