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Monophobia

Hey guys! How was your day?
Hope you guys were enjoying your day like I did :)

As you can see, I went to poetry reciting competition. I was so nervous throughout the day. But yeah hard work paid off, I got 1st runner up and same goes to my juniors. Congratulations to them! *applause*
Btw, really had a nice day bonding with them. :)

Guess what? Being nervous for a competition is way more better than being nervous waiting for a reply of a risking text.

And yeah, fyi, I'm healing.
I feel better nowadays.
But there's something.. I can't get to deal with.
I think I have monophobia :O
Which means fear of being alone.
I want to talk. Talking makes me happy.
But I don't know who can I talk to, I want a heart-to-heart talk.
I keep feelings and thoughts to myself.
And I hate behaving like this.

Talk to me, please?:(

They say the passage of time will heal all wounds, but the greater the loss, the deeper the cut, and the more difficult the process to become whole again. The pain may fade, but the scars serve as a reminder of our suffering and make the bearer all the more resolved never to be wounded again. So as time moves along we got lost in distractions, act out in frustration, react with aggressions, give in to anger, and all the while we plot and plan as we wait to grow stronger, and before we know it, the time passes. We are healed. Ready to begin anew. — Niklaus Mikaelson, The Originals.
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